i wanted to throw up everything i heard to throw up all that i saw, all that i felt i never knew the soul, too, had a stomach that turns churn... 🪽 "you tried to change, didn't you? closed your…devamıi wanted to throw up everything i heard to throw up all that i saw, all that i felt
i never knew the soul, too, had a stomach that turns churn...
🪽
"you tried to change, didn't you? closed your mouth more, tried to be softer, prettier, less volatile, less awake.
you can't make homes out of human beings. someone should have already told you that."
"i just dont know what im supposed to be. you know? i tried being a writer but i hate what i write. and I tried taking pictures, but they are so mediocre, you know..."
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There's so much i wanna say but i dont know where to start... [Davina] I will spread my wings and smother you with a million tiny feathers. [Sterling] I'll light your feathers on fire and watch them turn to ash.…devamıThere's so much i wanna say but i dont know where to start...
[Davina] I will spread my wings and smother you with a million tiny feathers.
[Sterling] I'll light your feathers on fire and watch them turn to ash.
Davina hayal dunyasinda yasayan ergen bir kiz. birgun asik oldugu cocukla kacmasinin ardindan birlikte ciktiklari gerceklikten kopuk bu yolculukta gitgide istirmar edilmeye baslar ve buyu bozulur. erkeklerin bakis acisindan cok ilgi cekici bir film oldugunu sanmiyorum ama bir kizin gozunden izlemek cok daha derinden etkiliyor. ustte yazdigim filme ait diyalogtada kiz ve erkek bakis acisinin farkini gosteriyor zaten, en azindan cogunluk boyle.
Sterling toxic bir erkek ancak baba sorunlari iliskiye yansidigi an onlar icin bir kirilma noktasi oluyor... filmin buyuk bir kisminda bulunan surreal sahneler ise beni Davina'nin hayal dunyasina derinden yer etmemi sagladi adeta. filmi bitirdikten sonra o kadar kapilmistimki ne kadar uzuldugumu anlatamam. kizi cok relateledim. o sanki hayallerimin, aksiyonlarimin ve sonuclarindan korktugum seylerin bir butunu gibiydi.
anlayacaginiz bu film tek boynuzlu atlar ile ilgili degil. unicorn, masumiyetini kaybetmeye dair bir atıf ve bunu film boyunca gormeye devam ediyoruz çünkü bir efsaneye gore orta çağ'da bir tek boynuzluyu yakalayip öldürmenin tek yolunun bir bakirenin onu kucagina oturtup uyumasini saglamasiymis. daha sonrasindada avcilar tek boynuzluyu öldürür buda dogrudan kizin kaybettigi masumiyetin temasina işliyor.
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"ve belki nefes almayi ogrendigimde sonunda konusabilirim"
(i know exactly what you mean and...
I believe in unicorn's too davina 🌬️)
i was 12 when you left and i have been 12 ever since (was i 11 or 12 mom? or did it not matter) maybe i wasn't a terrible person i was just 15. A piece of me will always…devamıi was 12 when you left and i have been 12 ever since (was i 11 or 12 mom? or did it not matter)
maybe i wasn't a terrible person i was just 15.
A piece of me will always be 16 and in love with you.
But today i am 17...
The exact age they were when they fell in love. father, i wear the year you were happy with her. She is still in your eyes here
not the woman who took you to hell
but the girl who smelled of rain and cheap tobacco.🌬️
holding hands in the dark,completely blind to the wreck they are about to make.
--but they spark--
Two flint-stones striking in the dark.
at 17, they are innocent still.I hold their youth inside my bones. I look in the mirror and see the shape of their young grace,I am the only monument left to the days you loved her.
He carved the anger in my face...
It's May again and i wonder may i ever see you again? and if i may, will you be the same again may i fall in love with you again may it still be you or may it just be…devamıIt's May again and i wonder may i ever see you again?
and if i may, will you be the same again
may i fall in love with you again
may it still be you or may it just be a memory
wearing your face once more, again.
anne, hic yapayalniz oldugun evinde, bir basina oturup kendi kendine dusunuyor musun bebekken tenine biraktigim varligimin agirligini? Hatirliyor musun, yoksa zaman bunu da mi silip supurdu?